My experience with the *virus* at the end of last year was deeply Shamanic in its essence and teachings.
Intelligent, intense and compassionate - in my experience - it orchestrated a deep clearing of old wounds, tied up in each physical organ, bodily system and cell as it worked me from head to toe, from inside out.
As each molecule of toxin, pressed down into my cells through years of wounding, resistance and fighting against myself, bubbled up, an emotion, a memory and a full body energetic experience would come with it. Prostrating on the bed, my body went nill by mouth for 4 days.
It pushed me to many limits and choice points that could have taken me months and years to get to. I saw my light blinking in the darkness and had to claim, declare and anchor in (again) my right to life.
I had to fully choose life from a unified place, having seen the contrast of my shadow and having brought more of my lead into the light.
It wasn't easy.
But, getting sick - for me - wasn't something to be frightened of, or to deny the possibility of. Being sick is - for me - something to be gently open to, if that is how my body needs to express itself and the toxins accumulated from having lived many lives in resistance.
I am not opposed to sickness, nor am I prepared to fight or mask my body's responses and fashions of expression. To do so would be deeply polarised against myself - and my own physical manifestation in this reality.
--> It would be to be against my own choice to incarnate.
Perhaps the *virus* isn't the problem, but people’s addition to being pitched against each other - and themselves - is.
Perhaps *it* is the Gaian gift of accelerated uplevel that we've criminalised and rebranded the enemy.
Perhaps the mass marketing of a bandaid-fix-all-ills to prevent, nullify, reduce, expell and test for the enemy was exactly the medicine that we needed to illustrate our addiction, born out of deep wounding, to a case of "us and them" perpetual polarisation.
As with all my work; take what resonates and leave the rest to the wind.
Are you Ready to Die?
If you’re not actively taking from Life, you are merging with Death.
In many new age spiritual practices, we can spend much of our time out of body; reaching, grasping, seeking externally to ourselves, “channeling” other “consciousnesses”, our “higher” selves – always more, forward, progress, self-development; mirrored on the outside as economic growth, growth per capita, environmental exhaustion.
When you don’t nourish, or anchor into Life, into the Now, into what is coming up right under your nose in Life’s mirror, lost in some goal, some dream, or someone else’s reality, essentially, you’re not anchoring into your Heart, nor into your cells.
If you have a propensity to merge more easily with the ALL that is, Death is more familiar to you than Life.
Death is your merging with the ALL.
Unification with the ALL, without a firm and solid anchor in the Heart/ Now/ Zero Point Field, is in fact an anchor into Death. Death is the merging with the ALL and the dissolution of the I.
So, I ask, why follow any new age spiritual teachings that offer you that merger without the anchor?
We see this as a distortion with people teaching “spirituality”, or “quantum transformation” and at the same time not actually acting, nor actually perceiving the world, through their heart.
How do you anchor your I? You have to fully consent to life.
To fully consent to life, you must be vulnerable enough to receive – and this means receiving life from everywhere, every corner, every parent, ancestor, partner current or previous, every single thing that shows up in your life to offer you a breadcrumb to locating the next piece of yourself.
Life doesn’t work in hierarchies.
Life’s best teachers don’t cost more and more money.
Life isn’t a pyramid scheme to be conquered.
Legacy itself isn’t monetary either – it can be as simple as being able to receive life fully from your ancestral lines, in order to fully give life to your progeny.
Any teaching that is merger without anchor fosters your connection with Death, not Life.
You cannot serve from the ALL, it has to run through the I, through the Human – remember that the saints themselves had to physicalize in order to serve.
It’s all very well pumping out metta into the void, but unless you are anchored in, you are burning yourself out and actually doing Life a disservice.
It is possible to set up a very simple experience, whereby you can feel into in the moment where you stand on the scale between being able to take from Life and from Death. This is a very powerful movement and realisation and in turn can catalyse many large and significant changes in one’s life. If you would like to experience this, please do make contact.